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Wednesday, 01 July 2009

Relationships: A Mess Worth Making, by Tim Lane & Paul Tripp

"It’s inevitable. If you live with other sinners, you will have conflict. The closer you are to someone, the more potential there is for conflict. Relationships are costly, but so is avoiding them. If you choose to avoid them, you will minimize the conflict in your life, but that safety has liabilities of its own. If you choose to face conflict head on, it is full of risks and the potential for great hurt, but it can also be redemptive. Either way, you will not remain untouched by your decision. What is your tendency? Do you tend to avoid conflict? Do you rush into it? Or do you move into conflict with a God-centered perspective?"

Let's just say that lately I've been making many messes...

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

My List
For whatever reason, recently I've been thinking about those lists-of-things-to-do-before-you-die. I decided to edit mine. If I don't do all of these things before I die... oh well. Life is about more than doing random things and having fun. Sometimes it's about dying to yourself, and making sacrifices. But then... sometimes it is about enjoying all the awesome opportunities God gives us. Instead of my list being a goal list, I want it to be more like an inspiration list, to remind me to savor things and always be a kid at heart. And I think it would be fun to read it when I'm a little old lady and see how many of these things I actually did.
And so, without further ado, my list:
1. Write a message in a bottle and throw it out on the ocean
2. Go on a missions trip
3. Catch fireflies
4. Watch a meteor shower with someone I love (Check mark. That was very special)
5. Milk a cow
6. Learn how to surf
7. Learn how to use chopsticks. Properly.
8. Get my nose pierced
9. Learn how to dance
10. Climb to the top of a mountain
11. Catch a bridal bouquet
12. Ride in a hot air balloon
13. Ride an elephant
14. See the aurora borealis
15. Write a song
16. Go cliff jumping
17. Learn CPR
18. Rescue a baby bird so he lives
19. Go water skiing
20. Go camping. And like it.
21. Carve my lover's and my initials into a tree
22. Get an article published in a magazine
23. Get a book published
24. Make breakfast for dinner. Happy-face pancakes
25. Learn how to cut hair really well
26. See an active volcano
27. Go firewalking. Or not.
28. Build an igloo
29. Read the entire dictionary
30. Live in a tree house, or at least spend the night in one
31. Learn how to play a complicated song I like on the piano
32. Eat something I really don't think I'll like, and find out I really like it
33. Learn a foreign language
34. Adopt a lot of children
35. Memorize a lot more of the Bible
36. Jump in a pile of leaves
37. Save bread crusts to feed the ducks with a little child
38. ... to be continued

Thursday, 04 June 2009

I wrote a very lengthy entry in my head, something I haven't done in a long time. But after I mentally wrote it out, my emotions were decompressed and I didn't want to write it here. In some ways this is a good thing. I've regretted being blatantly open before. It's embarrassing. But then, although I don't miss xanga so much (hooray!) I miss you guys. I miss the fellowship. I wish I knew you in person and could pour out my heart verbally. Which is messier, but also more rewarding. I having a craving for sisterhood.

Wednesday, 03 June 2009

A conversation with myself

Me: Isn't this fun, staring at a blinking cursor?
Myself: Oh come on, just write the durned thing.
Me: But it's so... so... stupid.
Myself: So? No one has to read it but you. Just write for yourself and have fun.
Me: Write for myself? But what if I think it's stupid?
Myself: You don't think it's stupid. You like it.
Me: I do?
Myself: You do.
Me: Oh.

Monday, 25 May 2009

I'm writing you to
catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter
probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it
didn't have a camera by my side this time
hoping I would see the world with both my eyes
maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way with words
*****
Today I finally overcame
tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame
~John Mayer